ootd march 09 2016 הופעה יומית

Shirt: Pink clove

Skirt: Asos

Shoes: Renuar

OOTD 04 May 2016 הופעה יומית

There's something about wearing red lipstick that connects to that very little fear that's still left - that people might notice me. which is funny when you think about it - since that lest thing I would want - is not to be noticed. but with red lipstick i tend to fear that it will go all over the place... and look but. and focus on my un-perfect lips.... so when I find one that I love... I really LOVE it.... 

(red lis by J.cat beauty)

OOTD 10 april 2016 הופעה יומית

Dress: So simple

Shoes: Renuar

lips: J.cat

Coachella time - shopping recommendation for the festival season - המלצות לקניות לכבוד עונת הפסטיבלים - או במילים אחרות - בוהו בוא!

ASOS Beautiful Embellished Poncho Kimono

ASOS Festival Maxi Kimono In Paisley Burnout With Fringing

ASOS Rose Floral Print Kimono

ASOS Felt Panama Hat With Western Double Buckle Trim NEW IMPROVED FIT

Mango Cut Out Brim Straw Hat

Reclaimed Vintage Floral Panel Maxi Dress With Strappy Back

Pimkie Mixed Print Maxi Dress

Boohoo Floral Embroidered Smock Dress
Black & Brown Boho Panel Belt

ASOS Summer Boho Stone Ring
New Look Wide Fit Lace Up Sandal


Daisy Street Lace Up Gladiator Flat Sandals
Noisy May Tall Bootcut Jean
Vintage Havana Boho Top With Bell SleevesPepe Jeans Destroyed Ripped Boyfriend Jean



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I am FAT.

In a world where plus size is getting more place in the public eye - I would think that plus size issues would diminish. But when girls like this - are the "model" for what a plus size women looks like - the issues only seem to get bigger. But not in the plus size bigger - just bigger.

For the most part when talking about how appropriate it is to have plus size in the fashion world - people often use the justification of the need to show more body types when in fact - the plus size  models of today,

Lura wells - look's pretty thin and fit to me! 

Couldn't be less representative of this desire, or actual need.



As a plus size girl my self - I've been looking at the media for a long time. Going thorough endless images - and
Thought about what I should look like, or how everything will be OK - if only I'll lose some weight. Like most girls in today's western culture.
And then, slowly but surly we started to see the "Plus-Size-Girl". The anti Representation the skinny, supposedly anorexic model which ruled the cat walk and our minds.

Now, in 2014 - we can even name some famous  models that happen to be plus size. And incredibly beautiful. Not shame in that. In fact - More power to them.

But the problem is, that in the plus size world - the higher the number on the scale is - the more diverse body types you tend to get. But while in the "skinny" modeling world you have some diversity (1), the plus size model is very typical . She's has that famous curvy body - that presently I would love to have. She tends to be closer to that famous golden ratio - and even more then "regular" women - because the plus size model is always under a microscope. Not only is she Representing her self and perhaps a brand - but she's supposed to also be the spokes person for the entire plus size community. And they really our not. 

And then you got to 9gag. Great laughs and memes to make any kitty lover like myself have a good break for the soul. Until you see what some people think as been "curvy" or "plus-size". You see - nobody wants to see the "F" word. Got forbid. So you have the plus size girls - with near perfect complexion, stunning figure and long lasting legs - and then you have everybody ells - that does not fit into the little box.
FAT.

Say it with me. It's freeing!
I AM FAT.

I'm plus size, and curvy and big, and beautiful - and I have a brain and self esteem.
And I'm proud to have the body that I have. Even if I don't have perfect double d's.

I spent at least 2 years leaning about how words and the use of certain ones - can change the meaning. How the same word can mean different things in different culture - and when I say cultures, I don't just mean the ones in Africa. Sometimes a block way - you have a completely different culture.

We need to understand that the plus size image that we tend to see (2) - are really just a slightly larger version of the same model that we saw in till know. I'm not saying that this was not necessary, or that they don't give some what of a contesting represents for the skinny model. But, Most women will never look like those models.
If you are skinny you tend to look a certain way. So, up till know - you could starve (or try to), Because the goal was to loose weight in order to fit into the box. So supposedly this was the ??? Of the classic American dream  that anyone could make it.
But the plus size girls - are either "it" or not. You either have that amazing figure, or not. And for most of us - we don't have that "it".

And that's OK. That's what we need to understand. We need to start calling the plus size models fat. And we need to hit all those idiot Neanderthals with a meme app with a large stick.

We need to start neutralize the negative context from the word "fat". Is just my body. My body is fat. (imagine my smiling as I say it). That's it. That's all it is. It's not a derogatory word. It's not an insult.

So in the end - what's the big deal? The problem is - that we, as women are still some what controlled to believe that we should only look a certain way. (or 3 ways out of hundreds of possibilities). Also - when asos.com uses a model that is clearly "smaller" than I am (and I'm a UK18 and I don't have curves!) - that's insulting. Because when you shop for a UK26  - you don't need to see someone that is suppose to be like you - the proud fat chic that we are - and she's really not. That's the problem. Plus size models are no more then "regular women in reality. And bigger women in reality - don't really have too much representation in the media - as if to say - that they don't deserve it.

More then anything - we need to understand that absence of a particular group within the media - or "Re-Labeling" a certain group has a direct effect on us as media consumers. At that's the problem. Because just because real large women are barely in the media - does not mean that we don't exist.  

(1) But not too much - the models still tend to be tall Amazonian gorgeous, long legged women. 

(2) And yes - I Know that there are some exceptions. not all plus size girls in the media our the same little box.

The one with the last pair of shorts for summer (2015)

לכולנו יש פחדים. לחלקנו הם ברורים, אבל לרובנו, רוב הפחדים הם לא גלויים. הם דברים שקבורים עמוק בתוכנו אבל משפיעים חזק חזק על כל מה שאנחנו עושים ביום יום. 

באיזשהו שלב היה ברור לי, שאני פוחדת מהצלחה. זה נשמע הזוי, כי עד אותו גילוי - הייתי בטוחה שהפחד שלי הוא דווקא מכישלון. אבל כישלון קיבלתי. בירכתי אפילו. זו הצלחה שתמיד התקשתי איתה. 

להודות שיש לך יכולות ולמנף אותן... וזו התחושה שליוותה אותי לאורך רוב גיל הנעורים ולתוך כמה שנים מוקדמות של שנות ה-20. 

מה שמעניין הוא שכן עברתי הליך, והיום אני מספיק חכמה כדי להכיר ביכולות שלי. מספיק כנה ומספיק אוהבת את עצמי. (בדגש על האחרון במיוחד). ועדיין, בתוך תוכי קיים הפחד הזה, העמוק, השורשי הזה. ושני הדברים מתקיימים זה לצד זה. הזוי.  

מה שהכי מפחיד אותי היום זה לא לעשות כיף. פחדים משתנים, אבל במהות שלהם הם עדיין נשארים זהים. אני עדיין מפחדת מהצלחה, אבל הפעם אני מבינה שהפחד מכישלון הוא הרבה יותר גרוע. ונמאס לי "להנות" ולנכס את הכישלון, הפחד, הכאב, והצער. מגיע לי יותר מזה. והפחד הזה, הארכאי שהוא חלק מהאופי שלי בצורה שאני שונאת להודות. 

אומרים שהבעיה הגדולה של הדור שלי, (שלנו?), הוא האינטרסטיות, האגואיזים והשטחיות. ועדיין. אני חיה בשלום עם האינטרסטיות שלי, כי מי ידאג לי אם לא אני. ושטחית... אני מאוד, לצד עומק. וואלה. כן. אני עמוקה. ולגבי אגואיזים.... אני אוהבת אנשים, בעלי חיים, ורוצה להצליח. זה לא סותר. 

הפחד הכי גדול שלי בגיל 30, הוא לא להספיק כל מה שאני רוצה. אם רק היו לי כמה חיים לחיות... אז אולי הייתי מספיקה הכל. אבל בינתיים אני צריכה לחיות כמה שיותר וכמה שיותר טוב. ואני מגלה שהדרך לעשות את זה היא יותר מהכל, לא לחשוב קדימה יותר מדי, אלא לחיות את העכשיו. 

We all have fears . Some of them seem to be clear , but for most of us, most of our fears are not visible . They are things buried deep within us but powerful and have strong influence on what we do on a daily basis .

At some point it was clear to me, that I am afraid of success. It sounds odd, because until My later discovery - I was sure that My fear is failure . But in reality I was the fear to know who I am - take pride in it - and use what I've got. Admit that you can leverage what you've been lucky enough to get in life ... And that is feeling that I had throughout most of adolescence and into some of the early years of the 20s .

It's interesting because I went through a process, and today I'm smart enough to recognize my abilities . Honest enough and I finally love myself. And yet , deep down, there is this fear , deeply rooted in. And these two things coexist. 

What scares me most today is not to have fun . Fears change but the root for them - is the same. I'm still afraid of success , but this time I understand the fear of failure is much worse . And I'm tired of " "loving" the failure.  Of the fear , pain , and sorrow . I deserve more than that . And this fear , it's archaic form part of my Personality that I hate to admit  that exist.

They say that the biggest problem of my generation ( our ? ) , is our self love. Our ego and superficiality. And yet . I am at peace with my self. Because who would take care of me if I didn't. And superficial ... I'm very much superficial, alongside have having depth . Yep. As for Egoism .... I love people , animals , and want to succeed . This does not contradict .

My biggest fear at the age of 30 , is that I did not get what I wanted - done .Whatever I want . If only I had some life to live ... I might have had enough time for everything . But for now I have to live as much as possible and as good as possible . And I found that the way to do - is not think ahead too much, but to live the present . The now.

The one from the launching of the first Plus size magazing in Israel

The launching of the first plus size magazine in Israel - was a pretty cool event to go to. 

Lots of pretty people - hosted at the Dpahna levinson store, and oreo cookies. 

Offering plus size Women a different image to look at rather then just the size 0 we got so accustom to. Especially when you consider that most women are are a size 12 and up. 

On the off side - There's 2 things that do sadden me. The first been that fact that only now -in 2015 these magazines are finally showing up. The other been - the sad fact the plus size women in magazines - are not the plus size in life. So - there's still so much to change in the image that we see. I think that for the most part - that's why I love this day in age - and the sheer fact that you can decide which media to consume - and  which to create. allowing everybody to have a say - and blogs been one of the things that truly define people's opinion in 2015. 

the fact that you don't have to be a rich media mogul in order to put out something like images of bigger women or an opinion on a product that might not get exposure ells where. 

I hope that this is part of the movement that still had ways to go. 

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Michal Shem Tov Radio jockey, Model, Stand up comic and Author

check out her Childern's book about loving one another - with out looking at color or size. 

all proceeds go to the Eating disorder unis at Ber-Shave Hospital, Surka

https://n.sendmsg.co.il/Minisites.aspx?p=39591-7365826368-5165

Sharon Ben- Shabat, Plus size Blogger

http://israblog.nana10.co.il/blogread.asp?blog=656513

Galastyle.co.il

May garf, Plus size blogger, 

http://www.maywearit.com/

Of course - since So simple is one of my current brand love - I had to try on some cloths....  And of course - had to buy them. :P

https://www.facebook.com/SoSimple987?fref=ts

The one that got all the complements

I Wore this dress to the lunching of the first plus size magazine in Israel. The event took place at one of my current favorites designers - So Simple By Daphna Levinson. 

The dress Is the dress that was sitting in my wish list (and on my mind) for the longest time. And when I got a birthday gift card in may from my sister - that was the sign, Of course - My birthday was in may. But I had to get this dress - and the time and place - were to be determined. 

The complements that I received that evening and the next day when posting my #Ootd on my FB fashion groups were the sign - that I've hit that golden ratio.... not only did I feel like a fairy - but I looked fashionable and good. 

The flow of the dress - the fact that it's long on me... was perfect. I felt amazing. And this was the perfect opportunity to wear the dress - making sure that the whole look - was just right. 

People liked the dress - but also said that I LOOK GOOD. which is just as great. 

I was lucky. I was in the mood to to a Get ready with me video. :) 

The video is also a proud moment for me. I'm a small YouTuber - and I teach my self how to edit - getting a feel for what's right and the right length of videos. this is definitely one of my favorite videos of mine.