The one from - Thank god I'm a women

I was born to a Religious orthodox Jewish family and went to a Religious schools system until I was 18. 

Part of that was learning how to daven the Jewish prayers.

The first part of this is the morning "Barchaout". There are 3 that change from Women to men - since in Hebrew there is a difference between male and female verbs.  but one of these Barchaout - does not chance just the verb. but the whole meaning. 

simply:

for men - the say "thank god for been a man". 

And for women? "thank god he made me as HE desired. 

I might have been as young as 12 - and thanking to myself - this is ridiculous! And decide to say "Thank for for been a women". 

It took many years after that when this started to be one of those things that women, Religious women that happen to be also feminist - talk about. 

You see - while man need to daven within a group of at least 10 men, women are allowed to daven on their own. So it s a private thing and something that nobody would notice when I started to change the words for the section. It's was between me and my god. 

It took more then 20 years later for my to be able to say that I'm a feminist. For some wired reason, like alot of my female peers in my age group I felt like I should be apologetic about been a women, let a lone a feminist! Oh My!!

Or

God forbid. 

But now, 30 years old I know that we are still so far away form ending the battle for change. And I can tell for a lot of now-a-day feminist that it's about gender pride. and god dammit! 

I'm a proud women. 

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we like are elf

All though my blog focuses on the fashion side of things I couldn't pass up checking out and talking about elf. 

Elf (Eyes.lips.face) is an American low cost makeup company, Not tested on animals and even have quite a bit of vegan stuff in their lines. 

What does it for me is the fact that they have new stuff coming out all the time. and for collector such as mysellf that's perfect!

The first things to cutch my eyes were some of their pallates - but I always start with the brushes.... 

 Studio Luxe Brush Collection

Studio Contouring Brush

Studio Retractable Kabuki Brush

Studio Retractable Kabuki Brush

Studio Ultimate Kabuki Brush

Studio Contour Palette

Studio Perfect Finish HD Powder

Studio Foundation Palette

Studio Bronzer Palette

And last bot not least... new eyeshadow palates!!

Stop the shopping! (if only for a while)

So, It appear that I've gone a little over board. Well. A lot over board. 

Not working for the next 2 months, paying some school bills and way too much clothes shopping has ended up with my realizing that I have to cool it. 

I mean - it's not like I'm going to run out of clothes any time soon, and I've reached this point before.... There was a point where I was shopping like crazy for scrapbook stuff. And then I realized That I feel too guilty and suffocated. My creativity was blocked. 

And then I realized I'm starting to get close to that feeling again. But with my wardrobe. 

So I'm starting my No-shop July and probably August. 

I'm trying to figure out what My rules for myself will be.... 

1. No visiting boutique stores. This is one of my current favorite things to do. Discovering local plus-size designers in reasonable prices. I still want to check out some new designers (new to me) but for know that will have to wait. 

2. Setting a reasonable spend budget for these 2 months. I know myself to well - I'm not going to not spend at all. 

3. No visiting my clothes stores in the mall. I have to be onset. There is no such thing as "just looking". That's just lying to myself. 

4. Going through my current closet. Wearing everything I've got. 

5. Enjoying what I have. Finding new ways to wear old goodies. 

6. Getting rid of the stuff that I've determine that I'm done with. Really. Why hold on to the past?